Salacious Propriety

You ever sleep for like ten hours and you weren’t really that tired? Instead, you were caught up in one of those most vividest dreams ever…the kind where it takes you a long time to realize it’s just a dream, but even when you do you don’t want to wake up, because you want to find out how it turns out cause it’s just so, I dunno, right or thought provoking - worthy of letting your brain wrap itself around it no matter how atypical, out-of-nowhere or relevant it is to your life. Maybe once upon a time it was very relevant, but it hasn’t been for a few years or even decades. Bizarre.

I don’t wanna sound all new-agey, cause I’m not. But for those of you that have had these dreams, it’s so ummm powerful. You wake up and you just lie there thinking “What if?” or “Damn, it didn’t really happen” or “Thank God it didn’t happen!…but there’s parts here and there that you wish did.”

Man this sounds nuts or even Lifetime channel stupid. I’m embarassed enough not to reveal the dream, but not ashamed to admit that it happened. It’s like dreaming about the birth of your child and you don’t have a child or are even anywhere near that sort of thing in your life, or even thinking about it. That’s not what the dream was, but it’s like that. You wake up and you’re like “Fuck! I don’t have a kid! That whole amazing birth thing didn’t happen. Why did I name him/her [_____]? Why was [_________] of all people the mother? What’s that all about? Why did I get a tatoo of [_________]? Why are adult versions of kids I played with in pre-school hanging out with me as if we’ve been doing this forever?” It’s like that but not what happened in this dream.

What the hell? And FYI, I don’t really believe in the whole dreams are some sort of message or something to be decoded kind of thing. I subscribe to modern psychology (sorry Dr. Freud), and dreams are the farts of our active imaginations. Still, I tend to think that dreams are composed of random thoughts during consciousness put together in some sort of “rational” way that only your brain is somehow able to put together in that wacky Wizard of Oz/Through the Looking Glass way. The thing is, these really vivid dreams, when they rarely happen, there’s maybe one or two parts that you can attribute to some recent happening, but the rest are like TOTALLY out of nowhere. And I just want to know why my brain decided to associate these random things with the very few actual representations of recent happenings in reality.

Blah. Kay, Danny you’re crazy.